Monday, January 18, 2010

The Day of Bleh!

So today I woke up and felt really bleh. I don't know how to explain it, but BLEH. I think there are a few reasons.

1) I've been sleeping really late.
2) I slept in
3) I haven't worked out since Tuesday
4) I feel slightly overwhelmed
5) I'm a little anxious

So I love my job as a teacher, but I feel like it's not the job I expected it to be. I don't understand why students don't do their homework, because I always did. I don't understand why they don't respect me sometimes, because I always respected my teacher.... It's kinda confusing, but ya know... I also just feel overwhelmed with the time I feel like I should put into my job, but I don't. I feel really bad because I put just enough time to get things done, but I feel like I should put more into. I guess it's that feeling we're suppose to feel all our lives. I'm told that if you ever feel like you've reached a point where you're "good" with God, you're probably in trouble. I guess I never want to get to that point, but I always feel like I should be doing more and then I get overwhelmed with all that I feel like I should be doing...

REALLY... I never understood Al & his mother's point of view on being the sleep police, but I think little by little I'm understanding more. I need sleep, but not like naps and sleeping all day because I believe that's what causes the bleh, but I need good 8 hours a sleep every night this week sleep, SOO hopefully I'll get it! Anyways, love ya'll!



  1. Just remember that doing your best doesn't necessarily mean working yourself to the point of exhaustion in everything you do. And PLEASE remember you ARE good with God! And it's ok to feel like that! (as long as you don't use that feeling to justify being lazy and ignoring His direction in your life...which you probably don't) But you are His daughter and you love Him and try to follow His will... You're good with Him!

  2. Love you Orchid!!!! You really are amazing! Here's our blog and we have several links of people you might know too.
    Keep your chin up and your knees down.

  3. Hey! I'm sure you are doing an amazing job. I do feel your pain- I'm teaching in a junior high too, (that's where you are working, right?) and we are working on finals right now. Some of my kids don't care about their grades at all, and its hard to push them. If you ever want someone to talk to, let me know. :)

  4. Orchid dear i miss you so much!!! I'm so happy that you found a job i'm sorry it's giving you a hard time!! I wish I had you as a teacher! i'm doing really well i'm not a dance major anymore a lot has happened that's for sure!! Hopefully I'll see you soon so we can catch up!! I miss you and your husband!!
    love you!